It's OK to Feel Broken
Something unrelated to Money today
I read A LOT of personal development platitudes on Facebook and Insta which radically over-simplify the notions of fear, faith, spirit and ego
What total nonsense to suggest that you could live in a state of faithful, fearless, loving bliss 24/7/365
Sure, if you run off to the mountains with nothing more than a loin cloth and rosary beads, nothing is going to touch you and life will remain forever blissful
But what about in the real world?
What about in a world where you've got bills to pay, businesses to build, families to support and ambitions to fulfil?
What about in a world where your buttons are pressed daily by the relentless stream of perfect bodies, perfect entrepreneurs, perfect relationships and perfect families?
What about in a world where your deepest, darkest, most damaging insecurities are triggered every time you think about how far you haven't come and how many lives you haven't yet touched?
What about in a world where you've been conditioned to believe that failure is a weakness and not a strength?
It's dangerous to believe that you can live in faith and love 100% of the time; you can't and that's ok because that's the predicament of humankind
You'll drop in and out of fear
You'll ride the rollercoaster of emotions
You'll love life when you feel good
You'll self-loathe when you feel bad
There will be days when you celebrate the successes of other people
There will be days when you hate yourself for being jealous of the success they have
It's NOT ok to expect that you'll live up to the positive-mindset, all loving, never fearing, utopian perfection so carelessly thrown about by feel-good motivators
It IS OK however to feel how you feel, high or low, up or down, faithful or fearful, every minute of every day; but with one caveat:
To TRULY tap in to a level of self mastery is to be CONSCIOUSLY AWARE of who is running the show at any minute of the day... One minute it will be your ego, the next your spirit...
Your conscious awareness will lead naturally to conscious intervention as you begin to understand what feels good and what feels bad
Your conscious intervention will create a momentum of positive thought that will keep you flying high for a greater proportion of time than you were previously able to
And ultimately, that will give you access to the faith that resides in your heart
The faith that will take you to places you only ever imagined
The faith that will give you the resilience that you deserve
The faith that what you feel now is exactly what you need to feel to help you reach greater levels of self-mastery
The faith that it is the multitude of feeling and emotion itself that create a truly technicolor life...
Without fear, you'll never know faith
Without ego, you'll never know spirit
Embrace every part of you
Don't judge yourself on the basis of some reckless rhetoric on your newsfeed
Because you are you
And you are cool as fuck; no matter how hard you find it to stay positive
Your friend on the battlefield of spirit and ego,